Tonight I come to the blog in pain.
PAIN, people. PAIN!!!
Yeah. I got that stupid nerve block done this last Tuesday and ever since the pain has been worsening with EACH.Passing.Day.
I cannot begin to express how sad and frustrated I am.
I WANT these nerve blocks to work. I want the pain to go away.
I just don’t think that this is too much to ask.
I do not want to live with RSD. I just don’t. And you know what? I just can’t. I’ve got kids and a husband that need me. And this RSD thing just doesn’t bode well with having a family that needs me and my services.
GAH! I just want to scream!!! And then I would like to just sit and cry my eyes out.
Oh, wait. I’ve already done all that.
My next nerve block is the day after Christmas. And at this point I don’t even want it.
Because it is starting to look like the nerve blocks aren’t going to work. So why get that whole nightmare of a procedure done when it isn’t going to work in the end?
You know…. I really thought my luck was changing. I really thought that this whole thing would work. I love being wrong. It just feels so darn great.
~commence with the crying~